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Anniversary

Posted: 06/06/2016 in Uncategorized

After an almost 4 year span of time not formally sitting in meditation, today I decided to sit. Yes, I have laid in bed with insomnia and focused on my breath, usually successful in falling asleep. However, sitting my ass on a cushion? Nah, it’s been a while.

Recently, it has been on my mind to get back into daily practice after a whirlwind life for the last 4 years. I’ve noticed anger has once again reared its ugly head, with my mind shitting out thoughts and feelings of irritation and impatience with those around me.

So I feel the time is now to work on myself again by sitting, reading something other than comic books, and hopefully writing in this blog. Ironically, I logged back into it today after letting my domain/hosting lapse and bringing it back to the wordpress host, I was met with a notification of my 6 year anniversary of starting it. On the 6th. Of June. Ha!

 

In the event someone happens to read this, I hope to put my feelings and thoughts into text more often than once every 3 years.

\m/

 

EDIT: I just posted this and got a notification that this was my 50th post on Metal Buddha. Kinda cool…

To My Compadres

Posted: 08/08/2012 in Uncategorized

Hey all,

I just wanted to let you know that if you have metalbuddha.com linked on your site or blog, that I will not be renewing my domain name, so my blog will got back to being just https://metalbuddha.wordpress.com, so if you would like to update your links that would be cool. I just can’t afford it right now, and I haven’t been very active in my writing since life has changed lately.

That’s it for now. Heavy metta to you,

Metal Buddha 

Memoria In Aeterna

Posted: 07/11/2011 in Uncategorized

My friends Falling To Pieces have released their album Memoria In Aeterna, which I wrote about here. They have made the album available for FREE download on their site www.fallingtopieces.net. If you would like an actual cd, they will send it to you for a penny plus shipping.

It gives me chills. That is all.

\m/

Big Pimpin’

Posted: 04/03/2011 in Uncategorized

Figuratively, not literally. This is just a quick post to alert all three of you that read ye olde Metal Buddha of a couple of new blogs to check out…pimp them out, if I may.

The first is a group blog I started writing for in addition to my own. It’s called Chaotic Nirvana and covers a wide range of topics including spirituality, relationships, poetry and much more. It’s candid and chaotic. Duh…WINNING.

The second is a brand new blog started by my friend/roommate Cameron called The Passive Habit. He is a talented writer who will cover topics such as religion, politics, etc., and is well-read and well-spoken. I know this because of the discussions we’ve had in our smoking lounge (aka the garage). Cameron has tiger blood and Adonis DNA so check it out.

 

Now where’s my money, bitches?!

\m/ Metal Buddha \m/

Got Books?

Posted: 11/28/2010 in Uncategorized

I wanted to pass the word along on this great idea by Rod from Shambhala SunSpace and The Worst Horse. He put together this video on how you can donate your used dharma books to prisoners who can put them to great use at the Prison Dharma Network. Check it out and make a donation if you can:

 

I’m Not Dead

Posted: 09/28/2010 in Uncategorized

To all three of you who actually read this blog:

I know I haven’t posted in a long time, but work has started back up again full-force and it’s all I can do to get enough sleep. The only positive about being off work for a couple of months is that I had the leisure of writing on my blog more frequently, and more time to study and meditate. Now that time has been cut immensely. I’m taking on a second job this month on weekend nights until Halloween as well.

I feel practice is more important than writing on the blog, so writing will have to suffer a bit and my spare time will be devoted to meditation and study, yet I will probably check in with something short and sweet like this from time to time. I haven’t completely “unplugged” from the internet, as I still read Twitter sporadically, and check in with the Online Meditation Crew whenever I can. I do think this is good for me, though. I’ve wasted many hours on social networks that could have been better spent on practice.

So that’s it for now, I’m not dead. Now it’s time for bed, as I have to get up at 3am.

Meditate and destroy!

-metalbuddha

Starting Fresh

Posted: 05/25/2010 in Uncategorized

Welcome to the blog formerly known as http://thedharmaexperience.wordpress.com/. Due to reasons I am opting not to discuss here, I have created this new blog home. I will be transferring all of my posts from The Dharma Experience to this new site and will be deactivating the old site. I was able to import posts from the old site, so check ’em out. Thanks for reading!

Dealing With Loss

Posted: 02/27/2010 in Uncategorized

This is going to be a tough post for me to write.

Today marks the 5 year anniversary of the death of my son, who passed away a little over a week after his 6th birthday. His mother and I considered him a miracle child, as when he was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy, we were told that he would be lucky to make it to a year old. Well, he proved the doctors wrong by living 6 times as long as they thought, enduring all of that physical pain, yet being the happiest child I have ever seen in my life. As a parent who has lost a child, I can tell you it is one of the toughest things I’ve ever had to endure, and still deal with it every day when I look into his twin brother’s eyes, and can see the pain of loss he still feels as well.

Now I’m not going to list out the whole “5 Stages of Grief” bullshit here and try to be self-absorbed and state that I have worked through all of the stages and have completely healed from this loss and “you need to follow these steps and you can too!.” This post is more about getting my feelings out of my head and on “paper” so to speak. People have different ways of dealing with grief, and writing about it happens to be one of the best ways for me.

This past week, my sons’ mom and her family and I met at the cemetery to have a makeshift party for my boy. We had my other son (his twin “C” as we call him) release balloons into the air for “Bubba” and we sang “Happy Birthday” and ate cupcakes. I was doing pretty good until we got ready to sing and my son started to break down and buried his face in my side, then I lost it. That was the hardest time I’ve ever had singing that song as I watched balloons float away.

It’s been 5 years and we still have not been able to get a headstone. His mom and I both haven’t wanted to do it because until now that seemed to be too much of a finality. Personally, I have been scared to read my son’s name on a headstone, and isn’t something I want to see. After discussing it with her parents, we finally decided it was time to go ahead and do it, so we have a marker where we can take “C” to visit and he will have something to look at other than a patch of grass. It will take 3 months, so I have time to prepare myself. It was the same sort of feeling when my father died. It took me a long time to go out and see the stone even though I had part in the design of it. For me, seeing a headstone in person is different than just explaining what to put on it.

So I apologize, I don’t really have words of wisdom to help deal with loss for anyone reading this. I guess I could say that if you are dealing with a tragedy or loss in your life, try writing in a journal or blogging about it and that might help. I know it helps me. The pain is still there, I don’t think it will ever leave, but it’s being able to constructively deal with it is what matters.

Rest in peace, Bubba. I love you.

2/19/99 – 2/27/05

The First Step

Posted: 11/03/2009 in Uncategorized

As the saying goes, a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step. This blog is my first step. I have made many changes in my life in the last few months due to some experiences that have rocked me to the very core of my existence. This blog will be my account of this new journey I have decided to begin. I hope others will benefit from what I will be sharing here. Comments are always welcome!